Laura Lynn Theuring

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Growing old (er)

I find myself thinking more and more of my past and now that I'm older I find myself missing more and more of what seemed to be frozen in time. I see my parents growing older and my nieces and nephews growing older and up until this moment I felt as if I grew with everyone sort of stuck in time. I was eager to grow up as most teens are, and now that I have I see my nephew talking like an adult and growing up to be such a brilliant young man I find myself feeling "old". And I say this so very loosely at the age of only 22 but I hit me just these last few months. My mom and I don't talk as much which now saddens me before it was freedom from what was my past. My dad looks older every time I see him which reassures one day he won't be around anymore just like god intended for everyone. Growing up your parents are superheros; invincible and never leaving your side. After speaking to my sister this last week It sinks in that I'm no longer my daddy's little girl but to him I will always be regardless of my maturity or age. I will always be aunt Laura but at the age of even 30 I'll still have to let them grow up. I just needed to share my thoughts with something other than my own brain. I see this particular blog as a journal, not a shared experience to post everywhere. I guess this is what if feels like to grow older. Now for some old pictures.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Peace

So many people have peace and have this everlasting sense of relaxation throughout their lives. I have always been moving faster than my body could handle and my brain going right along with it. Every once in a while I find the perfect evening if there is such a thing and when it comes a long I find my peace and I think that is what charges my batteries and keeps me going. Most of the time I find it starts as just a night in doing absolutely nothing by myself and most of the time it's tied to my music and what makes me happy at that point in my life. It's never felt as if I needed this time or never has it been a consistent recurrence. It's random. Being alone brings me to reflect and makes me want nothing else in that moment except my peace. Tonight my peace came from a jack Johnson CD, expressing my thoughts and life on my blog and just laying on the carpet with my dogs. You never feel as loved as you do when you look into the face of something that relies on you to provide their next bowl of food and licks your face as a thank you every chance they get. My dogs engulf me as I share their dog bed and all four fall asleep somehow touching some part of me to make sure I was there to protect them. As I hear the acoustic melody of Jack and his lyrical voice I find my inner peace and I want nothing else except time. I don't mistake peace for happiness because I have plenty of that in my life but sometimes you just need that evening to yourself to recharge and feel one with yourself. Some would just read a book with a glass of wine or take a long bath but everyone has their version Peace. Mine defines me by who I am and I love that.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

55 that make me happy.

I'm feeling a little blah today laying on the couch so I'm going to focus on the things that make me happy. (aka things that'll get my mind off my headache) lol.

1. Travis

2. Good food

3. Nanook's kisses

4. My nephews

5. My nieces

6. Each sister

7. My parents

8. Family in general

9. Chicken from my FAV restaurant

10. American Idol

11. Facebook

12. My flip cam